Thursday, July 23, 2009

Today's Devotional Scripture

Today's Verse
You have preserved me because I was honest; you have admitted me forever to your presence.
~Psalm 41:12 TLB
Thoughts on today's verse...
Do you ever question God? Now that may sound blasphemous to some of you, but is it? I don't think so. Above everything else, God wants us to be honest with Him. He wants a real relationship with real people, not something perfunctory or plastic or falsely "holy and reverent".

There are times in our lives when we are hurting. Maybe it's physical, maybe it's emotional, or maybe it's spiritual. I recall one such time. My son (my only son) was sentenced to prison. Since I work for the prison system I was especially devastated. In my prayer time with the Lord, I screamed, I ranted, and I raved. I questioned God, I didn't understand how He could allow this. After I had poured out all the anger, all the questions, and all the fear I had, I simply asked the Lord to help me see His purpose, to perhaps allow me to minister to other parents in this situation. And to glorify Him through all of it. Mind you, this was not an immediate response, it took months of prayer to come to this attitude.

I wish I could say that everything in my son's life has turned out well, but I'm still waiting for the answer to that prayer. And I will continue to pray for him for as long as I have breath.
My prayer...
Lord God, sometimes prayer isn't pretty. Sometimes it is down right ugly, especially when we have questions and are totally honest with You. Help me to remember that it is alright to question You. Help me to remember that You prefer a broken and contrite heart above sacrifice. Help me Lord, to be open with You, You know my heart better than even I do. ~Amen

Yours, because we're His,

Tamara